Confused

“The best thing about tonight's that we're not fighting
Could it be that we have been this way before
I know you don't think that I am trying
I know you're wearing thin down to the core

But hold your breathe
Because tonight will be the night that I will fall for you
Over again
Don't make me change my mind
Or I won’t live to see another day
I swear it's true
Because a girl like you is impossible to find
You're impossible to find…”

This song on repeats during my study for exam…
My habit, listening the same song repeats over and over again…
And this comes to my mind…

My desire for GUY is zero~~
Sometimes I am thinking of whether I am more to girl or a guy?
Am I a lesbian?
NO. I am not!!
This is because I love myself more than to the others,
I know it’s kind of a selfish act…
being selfish to the one who loves me…
being selfish to the one who cares for me…

What to do?
I am the one who don’t care people feeling except the one who is important to me …
Most importantly,
I want to be myself…
and I am happy of being myself~~!!